“I Kill You in Dreams” explores the haunting and complex intersection of language, war, and memory. Drawing from the German term for “arsonist,” the book delves into how both physical and verbal fires are ignited—whether through deliberate acts or subtle provocations that lead to destruction. The narrative weaves through the tension between silence and violence, echoing the forbidden secrets of ancient rituals like the “Mouth Closed Festival,” where speaking was punishable by death. In contrast, the soldiers depicted in the dreamlike imagery break free from their own sealed mouths, symbolizing the urgent need to be heard and the cycle of violence that follows. The use of lead as a material in the work evokes the fluidity and impermanence of conflict, as lead is soft and malleable, reminding us that nothing, not even war or memory, remains fixed. Through these vivid, transformative images, “I Kill You in Dreams” offers a chilling reflection on the destructive power of words, war, and the fragile nature of our existence.

Text typed on lead page (excerpt):

“Who am I? What forces drive me that I so relentlessly wage wars, dismiss lives, to satisfy what? Is it my need to fulfill every wish, every whim? Or am I occupied by this bottomless hunger that swallows each and everything that crosses my way. Bigger, larger, higher – stretch out and claim as much as I can. Anything I can slap a price tag on. Slap, slap, slap – Slap to get it, slap to sell it. Slap, slap, slap. Bulldoze roads, deprive whole areas, dig craters into planets, boldly go. Air rights, human rights, free speech. Turn shit into gold – an illusion I relentlessly use again and again.”

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Text stamped into lead covers:
Brecht quote in German: First comes eating and then comes morality.
Not knowing, knowing, this faint memory to call my needs and desires my own and not something I feast upon.

Text brushed onto pages with liquid charcoal:
Dear friend, let’s join the journey of a once so human creature far away from us and yet so close. Let you be taken into a world where life has lost its value and yet is all one’s got, this one life-time loan for a chance to reconnect. Where the hunger for being loved and the ability to capture a gentle touch leaves us wandering into timeless worlds, created through the perpetual repetition of our fears. Instead, to invite someone into our souls to share what is called I, what is called us.